I'm a disaster!

I'm a disaster a minefield a ticking bomb.

A danger to myself. Afraid of my own thoughts

The fear of all repressed and trapped memories.

Fear of losing control. Fear I'll not have the strength

To resist the inner struggle to take me through the day.

I hit myself hurting myself to relieve the pain

The anxiety panics the constant flashbacks

Of physical and mental abuse

Wounds so deep so emotionally damaged.

I'm a disaster a minefield a ticking bomb.