So mad at myself!

So mad at myself!

I gave up. I left everything. Should I laugh or cry.

When all emotions strike in all directions at once.

It tears my brain to pieces. breaks my heart.

I do not know if I should kick or scream.

Knock my head against the wall. Or all at once.

I feel like a monster. so lost and insecure.

I'm stuck in a panic! Completely hysterical.

So fucked up! So damn angry at myself!