A pattern of self-destruction!!

I don't dream anymore !!

But waking up is worse than any nightmare

Anxiety so high the panic creeping under my skin

I try to escape but inside I break !!

I want to scream I want to cry but I can not

I'm trapped inside a living hell a nightmare that never ends

A lifetime of hidden emotions and silence!! 

A lifetime of repressed tears and screams

A lifetime on the run from anxiety, fear !!

A pattern of self-destruction A  life wasted!!